a heartbreaking night

my luo han fish, or rather, my big head fish as i call it, finally had its last breath today at 1843. it had been under some illness for 2 weeks. somehow, the medicine we tried didn't manage to revitalise it. it started shedding its bright red colour, had bruises all over, swam upside down, trembling continuously, cloudy eyes.

i'm unable to accept the growing reality that it was going to die anytime soon, i still had that faint unrealistic hope of seeing it recovering. shattered.. the past 4 yrs of having it ard.

from an tiny puny fish, it became a lovely fellow who would do acrobatic stunts in the water. and how i would change its water and it, being every naughty would bite my fingers.

it sucks...