went to see doc again, throat ulcers took a turn for the worse. turns out that the prev 2 sets of antibio couldnt stop the rot. he prescribed me more medicine, some to reduce the inflammation and i'll now be taking steroids instead, but it comes with the side effects of fungus growing in the mouth and some others. sounds harrowing.

from wiki... Banned Status in Athletics. As a glucocorticosteroid, prednisolone is banned under WADA anti-doping rules.

i just want to recover, how many times have i punched the wall in anger just to swallow something, the pain is excruciating.

Haven't ate in days, the most i did was to drink glucose. i have since lost 6 kg in about an week plus. and i have to bear the thought of studying, i barely could concentrate when faced with the immense agony. Suddenly miss all my friends, i wish u guys were beside me, giving me hugs or something, im becoming emo, im totally feeling ups and downs.

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anw, i can start to feel positive effects already from the steroids. how cool. yeah, im beginning to lighten up. its like 'whew' to see some improvements, hope this recovery curve increases to infinity.

but i also mentioned that there are side effects, yeah, i feel that my gums are getting numb, jz an unpleasant feeling, feels infested. no wonder doc asked me to brush often, jz sanitize my mouth to prevent the fungus from growing. gross when doc said, oh, fungus appears when u see whitish spots on ur tongue etc.

there's a paper tomorrow. and im glad my mood is relatively better,

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i really want to see the light at the end of this tunnel....

sometimes, the pain is so unbearable. like thousands of daggers piercing deep in my throat. sigh......

ok, went to see doc again today. this time, i think fever has most prob gone down. but im beset by new problems, the re-appearance of diarrhoea and the sickening throat ulcers. imagine the pain and inability to eat or drink much if ulcers are attacking the mouth. but mine is all the way in the throat itself, totally unbearable. i mean, its really damn f******* killing me, the pain.............

jz swallowing something like saliva makes me cringe. haven't ate anything much the last 2 days, actually, i drank a total of half a cup of cereal. thats all.

losing weight steadily. i feel weak. ok and doc is also puzzled, seriously. he gave me another set of antibiotics. and thro'out the 3 visits so far, i have received a total of 9 different types of medicine. And so, i've really never studied anything. yes, truthfully, im expecting some failures.

Sounds pretty helpless eh. I'll be really relieved if i can get back to my former healthy state at the end of all these nonsense. Gonna psych myself with this.. im giving it a fight against my sickness. i will push on.

went to see doctor again after being so sick...

this time, he jz charged me for the consulation so not that ex, coz i have finished my fever pills and the wretched fever cropped up again during noon, after i thought i had recovered. damn.

anw, doc mentioned, ask me to watch out for rash within the next two days, most importantly, if i'm still having a fever on fri, i hafta go back and take a blood test, meaning i might have contracted dengue. hopefully nothing happens man. took another dose of medicine, kinda feeling better. pls maintain this way. LUN LA.

but if i get dengue, meaning i can skip exam. how cool does that sound.
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(previously) totally miserable.. had this fever from fri till today, wed. 2 trips to the doc, medicine over 100 bucks. everyday suffering the brunt of burning brain cells. imagine the daily pain and anguish, fever doesn't subside, and i cant have the concentration i need to prepare for the exams next week. feeling dead man, seriously

plus some gastric inflammation, sore throat, cough, headache, the nightmare is crashing upon me. i'm barely prepared for the first paper next wed, falling sick b4 exams can be such a terrible morale destabilizer. i've been cooped up in bed all day long, attempted to go back sch yesterday, but gave up halfway, head was throbbing like mad. anguish.

haven't had much time left already, so i just gotta try my best, study what i can possibly cram into my head.