next wk's exam, im feeling the crunch. but i've also been spending equal time mahjonging at viwawa.com, crap, its totally addictive at the wrong time. at the comp lib, pple will be groaning at stuff they cant understand in the notes, i would be urghhhhhhhh at 'jz missed the winning tile!'

there's only 2 routes i would take now for my career. i really aint gonna stick myself in the engineering mud. cant fathom myself caressing the equipment. Honestly, i still haven't got the juice after 4 yrs of studying.

Have been seriously toying with the idea of going back to my childhood dream. that's -> zookeeper. yeah, u might tink its a lowly job but i reckon otherwise. imho, animals are better to deal with than humans. and i would confess that yeah, there's jz this love for animals and nature. oh and so coincidentally, there was this tv programme on jobs jz yesterday, and the feature was the professions in the zoo, like zookeeper, vets, customer service. this particular keeper said, tis is not a 'cleaning after the animals' job, there're even graduates working as keepers here, all for one thing - their love for animals'

4 yrs of engineering studying = engineer (logical) / zookeeper??????????????????????

anw, ill decide again. there's always a way out in life.

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still got this ta-pao maths subject to worry about, having little confidence in it. i always suck at maths...... oh man, if i cant clear this hurdle.... ermm ill have to stay back 1 more sem? omfg.

u know for every non yr 4 paper since last sem, i've written at the front of the paper - last yr already, plssssssssss take mercy on me!!

one fine day. received an email from a fellow student in my elective course.

--->i have also taken the course of (XXXXX) but haven't joined any group yet. Judging from your name I know you are from China, and so am I. So can I join your group?

wad do u reckon my reply was?

im totally enjoying the freedom of days without IA.
im totally loving the late waking ups.
im totally indulging in slackness and zhuo bor.
im totally immersed in this new period of no obligations, no responsibilities and no assignments.
im totally ecstastic...

being an intern can be a pain in the ass, especially when we are having such lousy welfare and sarcastic superiors, not to mention their uncomprehensible thoughts. aye, it hasnt been easy for us, the 5 of us, but pulled through eventually since we've one another's company.

nus said, "that's the difference between them and n'us." they can compare all they want with regards to academic strife. but over here in this attachment, the 3 ntu and 2 nus chaps stood by one another thick and thin, keeping each other's spirits going. amazing how the 5 of us have no troubles within our group for this entire 6 months period, its amazing. i mean, no backstabbing, no animosity, no unfriendliness, just a piece of excellent adhesive bonding strength show for us to reminisce back with laughter and smiles.

finally, this is the last week of attachment, although i doubt anyone of us have good memories of the work in particular, we still put in our best of our ability. Hence, to be accused of lack of interest and shoddy performance, it was kinda disgusting. There's paucity of respect for us and our effort shown.

and how oblivious can people be. A particular superior had the cheek to ask, " am i dozing off" when im furiously doing testing on samples. with my hands in full motion in his view. all right, maybe he's sarcastic. Since he made this statement b4 bout hoping that im very busy, so that i wouldn't have chances to doze off.

my IA grade may turn out to be bad. but i'll figure my way out. engineering's not my only path.

anyhow, to my fellow attachment colleagues,

thanks CATRINA. u've been an absolute terror to my funny bone. i still cant fathom how one person can have gigabytes of jokes stored in your brain. not forgetting sharing love philosophies with you, and your never ending joy of worshipping mr zun.

thanks CLEMENT. u r seriously damn funny, be it whipping up random chinese songs to depict various situations spontaneously, or making lunches soooo enjoyable. and yeah, though u arrived later than me, ur presence broke the bullying domination of me by the 3 ladies. haha

thanks BELINDA. woah, now this is a gorgeous lady. im amazed at how she can electrify people, or how she can make guys turn their heads 360 degrees. and there's one thing she'll never admit. she was once my charades partner, i must have given you so much headaches, haha. and dun worry bel, u will find your real man soon!

thanks AINI. this is the ger who finds it a pleasure to talk back to me. my companion for dishing out groans, whinings, complaints bout work cause we both share the same chorus. she makes me mad sometimes, haha though the 'mad' jz makes me laugh all the time. and she's damn gui gui sui sui, always up to something ah. you know la hor.. cya back in ntu man.

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guys. its been a real delight working with u all.

my IA so far

so far, its pretty ok, after the initial gruelling period. juz going through the motions and awaiting the end date on june 8th. think i shall relate one particular incident. mixing of ink in bulk quantity.

yeah, there's a procedure sheet to follow, like how much ink/powder/chemical/additives to add in specific
quantities and the speed the mixture should be mixed at using a mixer.

and i screwed up the first time round. instead of the 5kg im supposed to get, i got more than 6kg. means i have added in extra from somewhere. expected, i got scolded big time for wasting the ingredients. got a 2nd chance to get it right the next day. and whew, this time, everything was done perfectly.

imagine the drastic consequences if i screw up again.









btw, the pics are of my fellow attachment colleagues.

and this is a usual scene of me dozing off and cat caught me in the act. haha how nice of her.

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let's conspire to ignite black holes and revelations of those fading hopes and expectations of this attachment. the further away. the better. back to school will electrify us all again. but we'll never let those memories of chasing freedom together fade away for sure.

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oh well, some other random pictures i took in the lab. --> my work area. the machine u see there is my wife for the assigned project. yeah, its basically like toilet paper. roll it, insert it and cut for removal.

ah, a joke to share. Knife cut Meat (dao qie rou), Meat cut wad (rou qie she me)? Meat cut Shit (rou qie sai)





<--- the 4 Heavenly kings of washing.

we use these 4 types to clean equipment from the chemicals, adhesive, and other shit.

starting from IPA (iso propyl alcohol). its the weakest. followed by acetone. better la, but not as good as MEK (methyl ethyl ketone). much stronger. in fact, its the preferred washing agent among us. but it stinks really.

finally, the best of all, which is universal screen wash. the number 1 killer. and its lethal.

<---- my mode of transport in the lab.

mike's lamborghini. im too lazy to walk about in the lab, so i jz sashay my way using this automobile.

let's talk about my attachment.......

oh. its been 3 days already! and pls do wake me up when its june.

initial stage here and i already reckon any kind of lab work aint gonna be my forte or interest.
Absorption of the technical data, getting acquainted with the machinery, or even the testing and researching in the lab. bugger, i dread all these.

some background of my attachment. im in the research and development dept. my company is a medium sized MNC. has a reputable status in the states for producing quality labels, adhesive, tapes etc.

i've never known a simple label tape can be so complicated. thought its juz a piece of paper with tape. has many layers in it though. the substrate, topcoat, varnish, adhesive, release liner... and countless formulations and experiments to be done among the inks, chemicals, ribbons etc. to develop for example, an adhesive tape that suits the customer's requirements of high service temp, suitable chemical resistance ability etc. tts wad ill be doing............ sigh.............. oh how exciting.

i have never fancied lab work. always late for lab in school. sleep in lab. copy wholescale answers. huh huh, wads this, no idea, blur cock, yawns are my constant companions.

although i think that has to change... gotta try the reverse for now coz haha, no matter what, its still quite bad to screw up attachment la. punching in a serious attitude in my brain.

but old habits reign supreme. i have been dozing off alredz during lab equipment teachings. my fellow attachment colleagues in just 3 days have discovered my innate ability to juz doze off and sleep, reminders, whistles doesnt wake me up that easily.

so who r my fellow attachment colleagues? 3 gers and 1 guy (arriving at the end of jan) i've gotta mention that a couple of them are pretty good looking. haha. im not getting any funny ideas here. but hey, those 2 ladies have been making the male dominated workplace turn their heads during walkabouts.

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it was a wretched first day of attachment. transport woes, got the wrong bus stop for a new SMRT bus service in my area.

0645 - left house. thinking ill definitely be on time.
0700 - reached bus stop.
0701 - to my horror, there was no 966!!!! drats. i figured out the wrong bus stop. its at the other end of bt panj instead. oh man. so i have to take another bus to get to the correct stop.
0715 - reached the correct stop. but starting to get worried.
0740 - after 25 mins of wait, still no appearance of 966! im panicking.
0741 - finally, 966 arrived. but it was damn full and the driver drove past, did not stop at all. gosh. thought the next best alternative was a cab den.
0745 - realised i din have the enough cash with me. and there's no atm nearby. so i have to rely on citycab coz they allow nets. and i was awaiting for this cab to arrive, managed to get one via 'on call'
0800 - damn. 15 mins passed and the cab still havent arrived. oh gawd. i was getting pissyfied.
0801 - called citycab. i blah blah to the operator and she asked me to wait while she calls the driver.
0807 - 6 long mins later, she could only apologise to me saying the driver din confirm the booking and picked up another passenger. wtf.......................... totally went bonkers. she asked me to hold on while she searches for another available cab in the vicinity. wad a mistake it turned out to be.
0818 - 9 mins later and im still holding on. damn, wad a waste of time. i could have got onto either of the two 966s that passed by during my torturous wait for the cab.
0819 - 966 appeared. i just heck bout the cab now. im destined to be late anw. so why waste the money and time and energy. took the bus in the end. 1 hour 20 mins wasted in bt panj alone. sigh....
0905 - im supposed to stop somewhere at eunos. but i forgot where and the bus ended up at parkway parade. ahh.. hailed a cab which brought me straight to kaki bukit.
0920 - finally reached the HR dept. haha. to my relief, my future 3 attachment colleagues were still waiting in a conference room for HR representative to finish settling the admin stuff. so im technically in time after all. whew aha

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time to pay my respects to this $10 shoe which i bought at clementi for my banquet job.
it lasted for over a year.

it has already showed signs of breaking down, wear and tear but i believed it hasn't reached its final fatigue fracture point. and on sat, it finally did. it snapped.

i failed my maths again!

not again....... someone pls save me from maths. im chained to it. have to take 3 maths cores in my entire uni syllabus and totally pathetic so far.

FE1006 MATHEMATICS I - E
FE1006 MATHEMATICS I (RETAKE) - D (celebrations)

FE1007 MATHEMATICS 2 - F
FE1007 MATHEMATICS 2 (RETAKE) - F !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (this was back last sem)

MS2001 MATHEMATICS II - F
MS2001 MATHEMATICS II (RETAKE for this sem) - F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (gawd. this sucks)

simply Fs galores for my maths. so im stucked with 2 more maths modules, way overdue, to be cleared in my 4th year. goodness sake. and it shall be my 3rd attempt in both. im so sadistic.

but den again...........

IM IN RAPTURES

passed my remaining 7 subs out of the total 8 i took. recorded my best ever overall results, a bucketload of Bs. oh well. haha

FE1007 maths 2 paper... Nightmare Horror Show

ITS A CREEPY CRAWLY TALE !! A GHASTLY TALE OF UNSPEAKABLE HORROR IN THE MATHS PAPER!!

was mugging like mad the night before, damn worried and nervous, keep trying to cram in the formulas and the basic steps into my brain. after all, MATHS is my worst subject ever, i call it a bitch. i dunno why i have such strong distaste for maths also. juz not good at numbers.

woke up the next morning at 6am, prev set my handphone alarm to some mozzie tune (eeennng Eeewwwnng) and it was quite effective.

downed myself in Brands Chicky Essense, gonna revise another 2 hrs before i enter the torture chamber. hopefully, that essense can help increase the current small size of Maths knowledge into something BiGgggGGgg!! " Cheng Zhang Cheng Zhang, Wo Yi Cheng Zhang (grow ah, grow ah, my brain cells, pls increase for better efficiency and productivity) "

ok, in the torture chamber, i see people with all sorts of emotions, some trembling, some praying, some smiling, some concentrated, some serious, some ugly, some pretty, hmm.. u know wads the next best thing in exam when u r stuck with hard questions? its to have some pretty girl to sit in front / beside u, gaze at her for inspiration. sometimes it works! but unfortunately, today it was like a 1 day trip to the Great Wall of China! back to reality, the invigilator announced the start of the paper. how now brown cow?

and... u cant juz imagine that look on my face when i flipped thro the paper! PUI LA this paper. i kena stunned, thinking, oh no, dun tell me i gonna flunk again. coz the paper looks so indigestable. tutorials and past year exam papers doesn't even come close to this paper's high level of difficulty. makes you wonder all the work for this semester is worth it a not.

i looked around for reactions. there's this ger beside me, she's a "tour guide of the China Great Wall" i kept glancing at her thro'out the paper to see her progress. her initial reaction (-->) she spent quite a long time on the 1st question before proceeding to have few lines of answers on the remaining pages of the answer book. she muz have thought all her anticipated questions din come out and her A is like 1000 miles away.

ok, im now facing an avalanche of blurness in my mind. i seriously could hand up a grey blank script without anything on it. all i got in my mind was this 'devil trying to lure me into the irresistable temptation of taking it away again'

starting to panic. its gotta be there somewhere in the brain, analyze the question properly and perhaps, i can actually figure something out. and i realized question 1 was do-able after all. felt so unreal, i was actually attempting the paper! ok, i din get most of the answers actually for the remaining questions, got stuck, but oh well.

felt the person who set the paper muz be some sadist psycho, armed with unlimited ammunition to disable as many people on the battlefield as possible. bet he's some bald headed chap like (-->) who lost all his hair figuring out ways to strangle us, grinning at the number of failures that proves his ability to set challenging questions.

haha, i really wanna be unchained frm Maths man so i can really vacuum away all the irritating notes. yeah, gonna call my martian buddies, ask them to kindly *zap* up all the exam scripts.